First blog of the New Decade

Okay so i just wanted to blog because its the first day of the new year. I just came back from retreat and i have to say it was AWESOME.

Procrastination at its worst

I have a Psychology chapter test and instead of studying, i’m updating my blog…great.

Retreat and VBC

Man, This week was a Long week. I’ll Start with the retreat. I thought the retreat was ______ . It’s Blank because this retreat was different than any other retreat. Seriously, I can’t even explain it because it was so different. At some points it didn’t even feel like a retreat. Anyways, the retreat was mad chill. I got to meet a few new people and new counslers. This retreat I got really old counslers with children already, but it was good because I got to ask questions where only people that age would know. During the last night of worship, the message was good, but the prayer was the time where I really connected and talked with god. I had a counsler pray over me , but what surprised me is that he was exactly Like me. His life was so similiar with mine that we were both shocked and we were able to share with each other on what we go through. All I could do is smile and be in awe of how great God is. During the retreat I was constantly reminded on how powerful prayer is. During the retreat, while I was playing basketball, my brother asked me for some money that i held onto for him. He told me that he couldn’t find the money and he left. When I finished playing basketball I had found that my wallet was outside of my backpack empty. I thought billy must have found the money. I was went on I had met billy. He had asked me if I had found my money. At that point I was confused and told him that I thought he had it. Billy then told me in anger that my money had been stolen. At first, I couldn’t even think straight. In my mind I was thinking that “I must’ve lost the money somewhere” or “Someone must be playing a prank with me”. As I kept thinking and I asked around, no one was playing a prank on me or I didn’t lose it. A sudden rush of cold anger ran through me, and even I kept thinking that no one would steal it. My brother got angry at me for losing the money and he said “It’s your fault for not being responsible. You Shouldn’t trust people in our church that much”. I couldn’t bring myself to think that anyone in the youth group would do that. I kept having this thought of that maybe one of the youth group kids took my money, but in the end I couldn’t bring myself that my youth group wouldn’t do something like that. Even though money is nothing big in my life I didn’t like the fact that it was stolen. I tried to forget about it, because it will only bring doubt amongst my youth group. As the day wen’t on I slowly felt better, but I still had built up anger inside of me. I hated it. So after worship during the prayer time, I prayed and prayed asking god to give me relief of this anger. I also asked god to help me forgive the person who stole my money. A thought came up saying “why should I forgive this person who stole my money”, but God had reminded me of my bracelet. WHAT WOULD JESUS DO? I knew that jesus would forgive, so i decided to forgive. During that small group later that night I told my small group about the stolen money and I had told them that I forgiven the person who stole my money. Forgiving someone was not as easy as I thought And I let my emotions take over me. My small group counslers said that I did the right choice by forgiving him and he would Double the blessings. After small group, my counsler told me to now Pray for the person who stole my money. And so I did. That night I pray for the person who stole my money and I asked god that he would just show himself to that person. I felt great after I prayed for that person. I felt like the burden just came off of me. The next morning I felt Great. I had totally felt better and I forgot about it. Things got even better from there. After breakfast one of my other counslers wanted to talk to me in private. He said to me that he was sitting next to my backpack when I was playing basketball and he saw some Hoogan kids around my bag. Not knowing it was mine he just left it there. That morning he saw the same group of kids ready to leave , but he asked them about my money. To my surprise they confessed that they had stolen my money. At that point, in my mind I was like ” ARE YOU SERIOUS?”. “What Made them fess up?”. When he gave me back my money I remember the message last night. “Justice and Forgiveness cannot Coexist, but only Jesus can be both be just and forgive”. Throughout the rest of the retreat I was in awe of this miracle that showed me how powerful prayer really is. Other Than that The retreat went fast.

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VBC

Part 2 of my week haha. After the retreat I was given the opportunity to work with the kids in our church. In the morning of the first day, I had slept at 3 in the morning and woke up at 7, so I was in no mood to do anything. Anyways, during the bus ride I sat in between some of my small group. I had most of the same kids from last year so I knew them pretty well. I tried to go to sleep, but one of my kids peter kept me awake and so did jamie. I did not notice that people were talking about me and I was surprised. When they told me to come into their conversation I came not knowing anything. Then I found out it was about billy being a good sibling and in my mind I was like “oh boy”. So i let billy talk and I tried to be submissive. Honestly I don’t think it’s worth trying to argue with my brother. In the end he will get his way, so I just let it go his way. When we arrived We met our small groups and I felt like they were very energetic. I told elderen that the first day should be the chill day, but I felt like he was kind of overwhelmed. The kids in my small group were Jonathan, justin, david, jason, joseph, peter, and jamie. Oh boy. Jamie was a troublemaker, but for some reason I was able to get him to like me. I found that being patient with a kid really pays off. Anyways I loved my group. These kids really encouraged me in their pure relationship with god. I enjoyed my time with these kids because I got to see what kinds of things go on in their grade. I had found that Joseph is a player. He is quiet, but cool and he listens really well. I feel like he was a little brother to me. Another one of my kids David was Extremely quiet. Out of the 2 years that I had him he barely talked, but When I saw him smile and Constantly ask questions about god I felt a joy inside of me. During the last night we had a campfire and i thought It was pretty chill. A lot of my small group kids were sick so I told them that they could go to bed early. We couldn’t go start tripping , which I wanted to do because I never tried star tripping. I also have a subungual Hematoma (Bleeding under the nail) because A door slammed on my finger. So I typed all this without using my middle finger. VBC was PRetty Chill.

Normal day

Today was alright. Took a geometry very easy geometry final. I took a 3 hour nap and now I’m starting on my homework. I’m such a useless guy.

A neat thing

Haha I might try this a lot

Fear

I haven’t  really been asked what my fears are. People usually don’t ask me about my fears. I have a lot of fears, so much it makes me look un-manly haha. I guess I’ll just start from the less complex fears. I am afraid of giant insects. I’m fine with ants and grass hoppers and stuff, but Imagine one 10x its size! The reason I’m scared of insects is because there was a spider about the size of my hand in Africa at the place where we slept. Another fear that I have is the fear of rejection in all aspects. I am afraid of being rejected by my peers, parents, and people I don’t know yet. I’ve experienced simple types of rejection like in WANT, I have to greet people. I know that If I want to serve I need to give up humiliation so I guess WANT helped me a little, but there’s still a part of me that is saying i’m not important. I try to keep these thoughts away because that will only lead to depression. Another Fear I have is the fear of growing up. As I’m Growing up, I fail to realize the responsibilities that I have to uptake everyday. Each day I feel I am getting more things to do. Thoughts about giving up and not caring at all show up in my head. There’s one part of me that keeps saying try harder and there’s another part of me saying give up. Knowing who I am I usually give up and I become really lazy. I keep having this thought that I have things unfair. Since it’s just me and my mom living together I have a ton of responsibilities as a man would have. These things are stressful and doing these chores everyday can be very nerveracking. I have come to realized that how amazing my mom is. Instead of dreading things everyday she thought me useful skills that I can use to survive with. Not Only I have learned about how to cook and clean, I also learned more about women and about how hard they have it. I have come to respect my mom and woman in general because I know what they have to do. What I realized that god gives us fears and worries because he wants us to grow from them in order to make us stronger. Fears like Fear of death and fear of heights hold no burden on me because god has shown me that i can overcome my fears.

Longest Survey

THE LONG & UNCOMFORTABLE SURVEY
(Lets see if you can get through it.)

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
-Name: David
-Birth Date: 3241993
-Current Location: room
-Hair Color: Black
-Righty/Lefty: right

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
-Your fear: The fear of not getting into college
-Your dream of the perfect date: I never been on a date so I don’t have any standards haha.
-Goal you’d like to achieve: 4.0 GPA
-Your best friend(s): I don’t classify friends
LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
-Your thoughts first waking up: I’m Late to church!
-Your best physical feature:None
-Your bed time:12:34
-Your most missed memory:I don’t have any memories that I miss

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
-Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonalds
-Single or Group Dates: Single
-Adidas or Nike: Both
-Cappuccino or Coffee: I never drank Cappuccinos

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
-Smoke: no
-Take showers: yes
-Have a crush: idk
-Like school: no
-Believe in yourself: never
-Believe what goes around comes around: What?
-Believe everything happens for a reason: yes
-Think you’re a health freak: not really

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
-Gone to the mall: yes
-Been on stage: no
-Eaten sushi: no
-Been hurt: no
-Dyed your hair: no

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER:
-Played a stripping game: no
-Been beaten up: YES
-Changed who you were to fit in: Never

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
-Age you’re hoping to be married by: maybe around 24-27
-Number of kids you’re planning on having: 3

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
-Best eye color: idk
-Best hair color: idk
-Short or long hair: long
-Fat or fit: Haha probably fit
-Looks or personality:both
-Fun or serious:50/50

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
A MINUTE AGO: Doing this survey
1 HOUR AGO: homework
1 WEEK AGO: school
1 YEAR AGO: school

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I FEEL: like I need more Motivation
I HATE: loud people
I HIDE:-Men don’t hide
I NEED: SLEEP

What is a food that you’d hate to be allergic to?Big MACS

What color was the last towel you used?
Tan

Would you prefer to date someone taller, shorter, or the same height as you?
Shorter

When was the last time your nose bled?
I nosebleed a lot in the mornings

How old are you turning this year?
I am 16

What is your favorite thing to snack on while watching a movie?
Popcorn

Swimming pool or hot tub?
pool

Can you swim well?
I guess

What body part do you wash first in the shower?
Face

Who would you allow to read your thoughts for one day?
No one ,Thoughts are meant to be kept to ones self.

What kind of first impression do you think you make?
I don’t know

Name your last reason for using a camera?
I don’t remember

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
School desk

Seven days from now, will you be in a relationship?
no

When was the last time you laughed really hard & why?
I always laugh Hard

What are you wearing?
Addidas wawrm-up pants, a shirt and a light hoodie – It’s cold downstairs

Did you enjoy your weekend?
yes

Do you regret anything you’ve done recently?     I guess?
Is there anybody you wish you could see?
I don’t know

Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with J or M?
no

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
I don’t trust many people

Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
I’ll be 26 so maybe

What makes you mad most about girls?
I don’t know

Do you like getting flowers?
Sure

What’s your favorite flower?
don’t have one

Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
no

Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
Not really

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
yes

Whose the first person you texted today?
Idk

Would you move to another state to be with the person you loved?
idk

Do you ever get a text saying good morning?
nope

Last movie you watched?
Terminator

How’s the weather today?
hot

Where is the person you need most right now?
Somewhere

What color are your eyes?
brown

Do you like poptarts?
yes

Where will you be 12 hours from now?
school

Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?
Yea

Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
no

Are you on a desktop or laptop?
desktop

Does anyone hate you for no reason?
maybe

Can you make yourself cry?
no

Play an instrument?
yeah

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
yes

What are your favorite colors?
blue

Where did you get the underwear you are wearing right now?
idk

Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with an R?
no

Have you ever passed out?
no

Are you easily confused?
yea

Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?
You never know

What’s your favorite kind of ice cream?
Coffee

Do you like coffee? yes

Do you like summer?
Who doesn’t

Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
yes

What color are your socks?
black

Where were you at 8am this morning?
sleep

Have you ever dated someone more than once?
no

Last thing you got in the mail?
My bank account update

What is your current crave?
Sleep

What color nail polish is on your toes?
none

Do you find members of the preferred sex confusing?
I guess

What are you listening to right now?
Glee

How has the week been?
New week

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can’t?
I guess

Favorite shirt to wear?
Hurley shirts are comfortable

Favorite drink?
Raspberry Iced Tea

Last person to say ‘I love you’ to you?
My mom

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
uhhhh

What’s your favorite color gummy bear?
Red

Have you ever run into a dishwasher?
no

Ever had a song sung about/for you?
no

Is there a baby in the room with you right now?
no

Do you know how to dance?
YEa

Where do you sing the most? .
at church

What is your favorite thing that is orange?
An Orange

What is the way to your heart?
I don’t know

What do you smell like?
I smell Like Old Spice

What’s in your pocket?
my Wallet

Anything in your mouth?
nope

Do you have freckles?
no

How many languages can you speak?
2 or 3 if you count french

What’s the last movie you saw in the theater and who with?
terminator with friends

Ever jumped/fallen/been pushed in a pool with your clothes on?
yes

Are you wearing any clothes that you wore yesterday?
no

Name a song that you know all the words to:
Probably N sync or backstreet boys haha

What’s the last thing you watched on TV?
The Science channel Or food network

What’s the last video game you played?
cs

Can you do the alphabet in sign language?
nope

Do you wear glasses?
yea

Did you feel better or worse or the same yesterday?
abou the same

What was your favorite childhood show?
Pokemon
Do you bite your nails?
no

Do you like your feet?
I guess?

Do you sleep well at night?
Yea

A blog In May

Didn’t Blog in a While. I don’t have much to blog about, life is just going at a steady pace I guess. Right now I’m job hunting, but no one is hiring a 16 year old with no working experience -.- . Hopefully I’ll get a job before summer starts. Tommorrows Friday!

Today is April 23

Didn’t post in a while… Hopefully will post more, but I don’t have much to talk about. Can anyone Give me topics to talk about? Anyways Tommorow is friday!

College

I haven’t been blogging in a while so I’ll try to blog  more. I’ll talk about College. Everything we do now in highschool is to determine which college we get into. For me I am not trying my best in school and i’m slacking. I get too lazy and I doze off when i get home instead of using that time to study or do homework. Hopefully 4th Quarter I’ll be able to do better.

Some of the Colleges I want to get into:

1.University Of Virginia , 2.William and Mary , 3.John Hopkins , 4.University of Maryland College Park, 5.Georgetown University , 6.Virginia Tech , 7. James Madison University , 8. George Mason , 9. Virginia Commonwealth University.

Wednesday MArch 25

 Wow, I haven’t Blogged in a while… I have a lot of stuff to talk about, but ill try to keep it short. YEsterday was my Birthday! I think that birthday went pretty well. During 2nd period AP world, They sang happy birthday to me, which surprised me because I never really had people sing happy birthday to me. It was an awkward moment, but hey I’m an awkward guy so It was fine. My mom bought me clothes and we went to eat in annandale after. At night My mom bought a small birthday cake and it was just me and my mom. It was very peaceful and I am so grateful that God has given me a day to relax. Today went well also. After school Me and my mom went to the bank to open me a bank Account. So now I have my own Bank account! I’m Feeling Older already! After I had BurgerKing And I went to school For Battle Of The Classes. It was okay… I don’t think that many people showed up, but that was my first time going so I don’t know. I have behind the wheel classes saturday and me and eddie are planning to ball in the afternoon also. I’m gonna try to get a job. I want to work at lifetime because of free membership and I don’t have to drive there because I can walk there. Wow I typed a lot.